Skin Crawling

I am so grossed out and frustrated by the food in my body. I can feel it in my stomach. I can feel it making me fat. I am shaking. I want to purge so badly. B is home, so I cannot get away with it. So here I am… stuck with this stomach full of disgusting food.

Rationally, I know I ate a normal portion for a brunch. But I can feeeeeeel it, and it is driving me out of my mind. It is daytime. I cannot get away with the take a walk with a bag trick. I cannot sneak up to the kids’ place and use their bathroom. My son is home.

I hate myself. I hate my disgusting body. I want to scream and cry and throw things. All I can do is be super careful the rest of the day, and then then really restrict tomorrow. I will just focus on making a plan. I can recover from this mess. I just need to get back in control.



Julie H. Stuart

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